:S

so dis is my first post this year...
dont think its gonna b all that
but im gonna give it a try.
honestly, i kinda hate that people are gonna see this
cos i tried to make dis blog really private
but dah obviously dint work out.
i just read a couple of blogs
not saying i got inspired but i just got in that mood.
its sad dah my inspiration(u noe hu u are) is long gone.

so ive been really confused lately...
looking and searching for that one person, one thing
to get me out of it.
i fail to pay attention to the signs..
i constantly ignore and avoid them
for some reasons im not really sure of.
im gonna try to code this as much as i can.
right now, i dont think i can ever be happier than this...
i noe this contradicts my confused state
but thats actually the problem
i dont wanna ruin it.
ive been very happy for a while
ive got the best family and friends
ive got a bestfriend i can count on.. even if shes been mia and tew busy for me dese days.
i think ive got the best boyfriend
i love him to death and i know he loves me to
but thats not the point of this post


i dont wanna do something im gonna regret for basically a lifetime
i have the power to stop it
but i seem powerless
i seem to have forgotten that tz my life and no one elses



im scared....
i feel threatened...
like hows that possible?
:s
ive got a limited timeframe to make this decision
and i dont wanna mess it up
i think i should stop ere..
before i spill
xx
taniqua k.


p.s- i just want to be reminded of how i feel now.